SMAD

I think I'm struggling with my "royal duties" this weekend.

After last week's attack on my beliefs I'm finding it difficult to be loving and gracious. Yesterday I posted an article on my Facebook page which I hoped would be informational about something that is near and dear to my heart but instead it caused anger in one of our church members and I took it down to avoid further problems. I don't know if this person didn't read it and just made assumptions or what, but the comment that was left had nothing to do with what the article actually said. I know taking it down was the gracious thing to do, yet I'm so tired of stepping aside when what I have to say is important and affects so many people I care about. Instead of being heard I'm told I'm narrow minded, out of touch, selfish, etc. What I want is to find a balance but they don't hear that. It's like they have this preconceived idea of what I believe and they can't open their ears wide enough to get past it. I'm getting tired of the battle and it's affecting everything I do and how I feel. I'm so smad.

 



As a direct result of my "SMAD", I'm supposed to be practicing at the church right now but I can't bring myself to get dressed and go. I might run into someone while there that I just can't deal with today, and maybe...just maybe they've taken all the joy out of serving right now. Instead of practicing I'm making some cards, surfing Pinterest and Facebook and of course...I'm here which is nice.  I'll practice next week...I'll have to. I sure hope I don't regret my decision tomorrow morning. I'll have the Sunday School hour to prepare for church...hopefully that will be enough.

I'm quite tired even though I didn't do much today. I suppose I should clean up my studio there is paper, tools, embossing folders, my Cuttlebug and my Cricut and rubber stamps...everywhere. Then again...maybe I'll wait until after church tomorrow.

Thank you to those who have contacted me recently. I'm really excited to get to know all of you and so I hope if you read this you'll leave a comment.

I'm Back...Again

It's daunting at first to start composing a blog entry after having been gone for so long. This big white box seems so big...and so white.

Much has taken place in the last few months and as I have said probably every time I come back after being away, I want very much to be more consistent in my blogging. Life just seems to carry me away. Let's see how well I do this time.

Thursdays have become ladies Bible Study day. A few of us got together and just decided we needed a study and so we began. It has been so wonderful for me personally to have a circle of friends to stand beside me and uphold me in prayer when needed. This has been a long time coming.

The new year has brought little to no change in my personal life. I am hoping and praying for change in several areas as the year goes on. Last year I had some of my beliefs questioned...well, actually I was told I'm wrong to believe the way I do. I went back armed with God's Word to no avail. I will not/cannot compromise my stand on this issue and because I will not bend, I am being considered as one causing conflict and dissension. I'm praying somehow for this to be resolved but it's difficult to see how when neither side will compromise their position. It's going to be very difficult to serve on the music committee this year because of this situation. I do have a support system in place now, the ladies from Bible Study and a few other friends and that helps a lot.

So if you come back to visit...and I come back to post, you'll be hearing about church, my projects, my goals, my plans, my piano students, what I'm learning, my new diagnosis, my new business and how I manage it all and try to keep my crown from falling off.

Please say hi if you stop by!