After practice, Hubby and I went into town together we got lunch at Hardees and he took his trumpet in to the music store to be repaired - I left some business cards. We then went to Walmart...can't remember the last time I was there..fall sometime. I was so disappointed. I had hoped to maybe see some interesting new scrapbook materials or buy a new top to freshen my wardrobe, but they hadn't gotten in any new materials since I was in there the last time and the clothing selection was just plain UGLY! I guess I didn't miss a thing by being stuck at home all winter. I came home with a new mascara, a new toothbrush and a box of medium brown hair dye.
I came home and my Mentor and I fired some emails back and forth. I have been uneasy about talking to those gals about helping with the recital and without my even asking him his opinion, he said:
"In the back of my mind this is actually what I envisioned; it makes so much sense to have Jan and Kathleen helping out. They are such wonderful people and Evangelical Lutherans to the core; just what you want when you are introducing an organ to a church congregation. Their musical philosophies are yours by choice theirs by birth and tradition. I really "feel" so much better about this. There is an inoffensive honesty to it. I really would like to sit this one out and just attend it and enjoy it.
This seems very pleasant in its approach.
Well done, Julie :)."
Sometimes, like this time, I have to struggle to fully understand his meaning, but then he'll come through and like in this email, it will all become clear and he will finally help me come to a place of peaceful acceptance and understanding. I'm still wishing he would consent to play something and be a part of it, but I don't want him to if he doesn't want to and it's obvious he doesn't. I had such dreams of what this would be like and now I have to forget them and move on. Oh well...life is full of disappointments.I also cleaned the house this afternoon...dusted, swept and mopped the floors, cleaned the bathroom, washed, folded and put away 2 loads of Hubby's clothes, cooked a meal for tomorrow and used that box of medium brown hair dye.
Hubby is watching Saving Private Ryan. I know it's a good movie and all, but I just can't watch it. I'll work on cards for a few minutes, walk Suki and turn in. I'm quite tired and have a big day tomorrow.
