The snow keeps falling...the wind keeps blowing...roads are slick...wind chill is ridiculous...my car died. Yesterday after my practice time it wouldn't start and Hubby had to come rescue me. Tonight he took it to a hockey game and got stranded. I went to help him jump it and it wouldn't jump so it's in the lot for the night, hopefully it won't get towed away. Last night all I wanted to do was sleep. In the morning I find it more and more difficult to get out of bed...I wish I could be like the animals and tuck myself in for a long winter's' nap! I should be making cards, but by the time I finished all my chores tonight there was only time to drag out the supplies and make a mess...it's too late to be creative.
I'm feeling quite overwhelmed again with my organ education. My mentor joined me yesterday in my practice time...the man sits down and places his hands on the keys and magic happens!! I want so much to play like he does. He says I will....I honestly don't see how. It's so natural for him, it's as easy as breathing for him and I should have taken better notes...I wish I could have written down everything he's told me for the last 22 years. Half of it I didn't think I'd ever be able to use and here I am. Some days I feel as though I have missed the bus...that it's too late to put to work what I know and to late to learn the rest of what I need to know. I just hope and pray he will continue to want to work with me....he's retiring soon...that combined with the fact that I often feel like I am a pest make me wonder if he's not getting tired of our arrangement. I had so many questions for him yesterday and there was no opportunity to ask them. Time just marches on and more and more I feel as though I'm being left in the dust of life.
Today we received an invitation to drive 3 hours south of here to see an installation of a pipe organ. It's in a Catholic church whose pastor is the former pastor at the church where my mentor is organist. I miss Father Eric. The church just hasn't been the same since he left. I love this idea for a road trip...maybe this summer some time.
Tomorrow is more household chores and several students as well as practice time for me. I'll have to drive Hubby's truck...in the snow...on the slick roads...not sure I'm ready for that. I'll put a pork roast in the crock-pot in the morning for supper and cook up a stir-fry for lunch.
Almost time for bed...
Be safe when you drive and hopefully your car wasn't towed. I am sure you will be as good as your mentor one of these days....you want it so badly.
ReplyDeleteIt wasn't towed, it's working for now...I'm just praying it continues. Thanks for the encouraging words.
DeleteThat is a lovely tree, with the snow falling!!
ReplyDeleteJulie, I have a feeling you are much better than you give yourself credit for. We are usually the hardest on ourselves. Your wonderful mentor would now have stuck with you all these years, if he didn't know your potential. What a blessing to have him in your life, and I'm sure that won't change because he is retiring.
Please be careful out there in the nasty weather!! Hope the car is an easy fix! Please keep us posted!
The car is working for now, hopefully it will continue. Thanks for the encouraging words, I hope you're right about things not changing. He is a blessing in my life and music and he's too humble to admit it, but I need his input.
DeleteOh, Julie.... how many times have you told me "no negativity". I think you also told me we're never too old to learn. After all, it's good for the brain.
ReplyDeleteI have to agree with what Terri said. Your mentor has been with you for years and I'm sure he enjoys what he does. He also knows what you are capable of doing. You are too hard on yourself. All creative people are.
You be careful in the icy conditions.
Thank you Carol, you're right, I didn't mean to be negative. I know I'm not too old to learn, but I will explain more in depth in my next post as to why I said those things. I am too hard on myself, you're right.
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